August 2011
1 post
July 2011
1 post
Signs
so i am sitting in the living room with my 3 sisters Liliana, Ivonne and Carla and with Chango…. watching signs. this movie is so awesome and scary it makes me curious as to wether or not theere really is life out there or if ths planet is it. hmmmm
May 2011
1 post
I hate when......
I wake up from a very good night’s sleep feeling happy well and refreshed and then as you walk into the next room you realized someone you didn’t expect to see and someone you don’t want to be around is there.fml :c Deme Deceased
March 2011
12 posts
Help my band win!
Please help Della!Della! Win Like Static Studios and make sure to “like” the wall post posted by Carmen Martinez. http://www.facebook.com/staticstudio Static Studio CHECK US OUT ON YOUTUBE! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mu5uqmQ2o5w Myspace: www.myspace.com/heyheyhicups Deme Deceased
Omg!
I like Johnny from Casino Madrid! What do? Deme Deceased
Soooooo
Yeah I feel different. I changed. I know I did…. but is it for the better? So many things have been happening around me first of all I feel like I’m attracting a lot of “the wrong kind of attention” guys who just wanna “get down” noone that actually want to be with me….. hmmmmmmm what now? :\ Deme Deceased
I just got a very harsh dose of reality....
Omg…. I am so sad. I am so fucking fucking tired & confused! I don’t know what to do anymore :c Deme Deceased
I wish I knew
What his intentions are Deme Deceased
February 2011
12 posts
I hate my life.
I know I complain about it all the time, but goddamit if anyone was in my shoes they would see how I feel… they would see what I go through. It hurts me to see the person I love most in the world being with someone else. April 23rd is our 2 year anniversary since we broke up :C and on the 24th its their happy 2 year anniversary. I fucken hate myself! I hate my life! I hate my feelings! Ugh....
Goddamit! I am such a fool!
He does it to me over and over again. I’m such an idiot! :c Deme Deceased
I hate to admit it.
But he’s right. I don’t deserve the amount I get. I don’t earn the amount of sleep I’m getting. I need to make things fair. I am gonna try my best work like I did in the beginning. I am gonna try to make it fair. Deme Deceased
I feel so...
Worthless. Ugh. I am the biggest bitch on the planet! In his eyes I’m the worst person possible! :C I feel so little, so invisible, so worthless. I feel like a penny. I wish I had someone to talk to my “special friend” doesn’t talk to me anymore…. so now what? What do I do? Do I cry alone like always? Yes. I cry alone. Deme Deceased
If they move in together....
Its gonna KILL me…. :c fml Deme Deceased
Why does it feel like...
Everyone lies or hides things from me? Deme Deceased
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
I wanna throw my phone at the wall! I wonder what would happen Deme Deceased
I'm so sick and tired of being...
Mistreated, led on, disrespected, tricked, deceived, lied to… I’m so sick of being used. If I’ve learned anything about myself the last 4 days its I don’t deserved to be liked, respected or loved…. I was just meant to be used. I hate myself. I hate my life. Its all I’ve earned… all I deserve. I wish something had changed … I wish something was...
What is my life coming to?
Wow. So much has happened I have a new friend…. a very special friend. And I can’t believe where my life is heading… only time will tell if its good or bad. Deme Deceased
He left me.....
He just walked away Unaware of how I felt Never to return Deme Deceased
I hate my life!
I’m so sick and tired of being me! Deme Deceased
Haiku "Deme"
Empty and lonely I dry my tears all alone Tears of pain I cry Deme Deceased
January 2011
6 posts
=[
Well, I feel pretty bad right now…. he just told me he almost broke up with her…. and he might soon. I don’t know what to say or do. I see the hurt in his eyes & it kills me!! My insides feel like they are liquefying! Uuuggghhh…. I can’t stand to see him like this. Hopefully things work out for the best… all I want is for him to be happy! Deme Deceased
OMG :C
I just realized its almost 2 years in about 4 months!!! Ugh! 2 weeks before my birthday! :C fml I don’t know what I’m going to do those 2 days… :c siiigh I fucking hate this! Deme Deceased
Ugh
Things don’t change Deme Deceased
Work.
We just got to work. : c like 3 sentences have been exchanged in the last
2 hours... its gonna be a looong & uncomfortable night... : c I wish
things we're different... but they just can't.
Deme Deceased
The last 5 years of my life....
Really? Is this what the last 5 years of my life come to…. Deme Deceased
It is times like this I wish I would cease to...
So, I don’t get why this shit always happens to me. I try and try so hard to make things ok… to keep things ok, but it seems like the second he made up with her… he changed…. soo maybe I was hoping for the worst… maybe a small part wanted her to stay mad… is this my punishment for wishing bad things? I guess it is. I wish he would listen to me.. Hear me out....
December 2010
9 posts
Dreams.
I just seems to have the worst dreams! Ughh the year is ending and again I’m lonelies… so what I have 3 jobs! I have noone to share it with! I kind of have my best friend back, but its no good when there is a jealous gf in the equation. I really wish things were different. Siigh -
Well,
I continue to fell horrible…. there is yet another girl who wants him… siigh -//- Deme Deceased
“Digital Love”
– Last night I had a dream about you In this dream I’m dancing right beside you And it looked like everyone was having fun the kind of feeling I’ve waited so long Don’t stop come a little closer As we jam the rythm gets stronger There’s nothing wrong with just a little little...
What am I supposed to do?!
Idk how much longer I can keep up with this charade! :c Deme Deceased
Well
I should be sleeping right now… I have work at 1am. Newspapers are awesome! Lol Deme Deceased
How can somebody be right next to you and yet you still feel empty & alone? =c Deme Deceased
I honestly don't know how much more of this I can...
My life is just spinning out of control and I can’t do anything about it! Am I really just here for his benefit and usage? I truly hope not. Deme Deceased
Well,
Things in my life continue to be the same! What else can I say besides I hate it! Deme Deceased
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November 2010
3 posts
Is it
Normal? I need to do something about this! Soon! Deme Deceased
Well, its time to come clean
Or as clean as I can…. I wish I had a bff. I have the GREATEST boyfriend… then he became the GREATEST bff… then just a band member && now nothing. :c its not fair. How can someone be so selfish && greedy?!?! I miss him so much && there isn’t anything I can do! I don’t have any friends…. not a 1. I have a few people I talk to but its not...
I
Hate being sick! Deme Deceased
October 2010
5 posts
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them...
Spend all your time waiting, For that second chance. For a break that would make it okay. There’s always some reason To feel not good enough And it’s hard at the end of the day. I need some distraction Or a beautiful release Memories seep from my veins. Let me be empty Oh, weightless and maybe I’ll find some peace tonight. In the arms of the angels. Fly away from here. From this...
“I’ll be your crying shoulder, I’ll be love suicide, I’ll be...”
– Deme Deceased
Omigosshhh tumblr.
I want to have a Halloween party. Hopefully I have enough money… and if it can’t be this year at least I am going to save money and start buying little things that I am going to use next year. I want to have everything COOL DECORATIONS, GAMES, FOOD, MUSIC…. EVERYTHING! Hopefully things will work out! >.
Well,
I am again in like with someone…. and once again I am getting hurt AGAIN AND AGAIN :C Deme Deceased